Mar 4, 2002

Happy First Monday in March!

Monday Mission 2.9
1. What domain names (if any) did you think up, only to find they had already been registered? Or, if you don’t have a domain, what’s stopping you?
Ohhhh…good question. Well, my very first domain was mylittlecorner.com, and I had that for 3 years. It is now defunct, I was offline for over 8 months at one point, and the renewal came up, and it just didn’t seem worth it to keep it going when I wasn’t sure when I would be back online. So, when I was thinking about domains again, a few I wanted were transparencies.com (Transparencies was what I called my blog at first…I might actually go back to that name…I chose it because I so often feel “invisible” in my own life, or transparent.) A few others were invisiblegirl.com/net, faeryrealms.com, and spidersilk.net. Luckily for me I didn’t have to search long, because the Wiccan section of my site has ALWAYS been called Magickal Musings, so it was a natural progression to try it as a domain name.
2. Name one of your favorite memories of dancing with someone (the person, the song, the feelings…)
Hrmmm…I haven’t danced with too many people in my life. But, notwithstanding our current problems, the first time I danced with Corey was at a wedding of a friend of his, and it was to “You Look Wonderful Tonight” (is that what it’s called?) I don’t really know. But I felt so warm and protected and HAPPY. I only wish we could bring those feelings back. :/
3. Any elderly relatives you should be visiting, you know, before it is too late?
Yes, actually. My grandparents are getting older (so hard for me to imagine), and I haven’t seen them in over 7 years (because I wasn’t talking to my mother, and my whole family lives down there in Maryland, and I guess I thought to myself that no one else would want contact with me if I wasn’t talking to HER), and I have heard that my grandfather has had a heart attack, and he now has prostate cancer, and that my grandmother isn’t doing that well either. So I really really need to take some time to go down there and visit them (and all the rest of my family) before it truly is too late.
4. What is your Instant Messaging program of choice?
AIM
5. How many names are on your Buddy list? Care to share your username?
Ummmm…..I think around 28 people are on my list currently. My username is ChocL8GiRL.
6. What is the longest you’ve had to hold it before you could get to a bathroom? What’s the story there?
Wow, good question. Probably close to an hour or so, only example I can think of right now is when I went on a trip with my grandparents and one of my aunts to West Virginia, and it wasn’t a long ride, so they wanted to get there as soon as possible without stopping, and I was only like 8, and I had to go SO bad, and they wouldn’t stop, so when we got to my Great-Uncle Charlie’s house, whom we were going to visit, I didn’t even wait to be introduced, as this was my first time seeing them, I just asked for the bathroom and RAN! LoL.
7. Describe the prefect date night.
Hmmmm…..well, I have never in my entire life been on a “real” date, so I can only imagine what that might be, but I guess thinking about it, I would say…going to an amusement park. Yes, really. I LOVE amusement parks. They are so much FUN! The rides are cozy and close and you can cling to the guy when they get crazy, you can share cotton candy and laugh and lick the sticky sweetness off of each other’s fingers, you can try to win each other prizes, and you can just walk around with fingers entwined, giggling madly.
BONUS: Who’s Bad?
Oh, gosh, DEFINITELY Michael Jackson! I am SUCH an 80′s child. =D

Mar 3, 2002

Memory Lane

I was thrown back into a time warp of sorts today by a good friend of mine. She was talking about how much the world has changed, just in the past 20 years. Let me tell you, I SO understand where she is coming from.
When I was a child, I never worried about being snatched from my bed in the middle of the night. I never worried about a stranger pulling me into their car. When I was a child, the only place I was afraid was my own house. So, being out of the house was…freedom. Untethered, unmonitored freedom.
My grandparents live in a big, sprawling, two-story house with front and back enclosed porches. When I was little it used to have a humongous u-shaped driveway that you go in one way, then leave on the other side. Right across the street from their house was a huge, beautiful forest, probably at least a square mile. There was a little, meandering path that started across from the neighbor’s house, and it went in a little ways, then had a steep drop where you had to walk almost parallel to the hill in order to get down it without falling on your ass and rolling the rest of the way, while at the same time you are trying to get around trees because the path has broken up and you can’t find it and OUCH! the branch hit you on the arm and you have to make a grab at that sapling to keep your balance and you pray it won’t break off in your hands as it bends. When you finally get to the bottom, it evens out nicely and even clears a bit of the trees, and there is a serene aura to the forest. It is so quiet. Directly ahead you see a crevice, with a large fallen tree over the opening so you can get across. As you approach the crevice, you look down into a lovely little flowing creek, replete with dark, verdant moss along the banks. I can remember just sitting or laying on that fallen log for hours on end, daydreaming or reading or joking and talking with a friend. Upon crossing the log, there was no path…just trees. I always knew where I was because I could hear the traffic on one side from the half-way main road, and even when I would come through to the other side, I always knew what street I was on and where I was.
OK, I guess the whole point of this post was that…..at the time I remember having my best times doing things like this….I was somewhere between the ages of 6 and 12. Roaming the woods and the streets, even using a little abandoned building for a “headquarters” for a while with some friends, playing kickball and kick the can with all the neighborhood kids until well after the fireflies came out. Riding my bike EVERYWHERE, walking home from school by myself. And hardly an adult in site.
And I think about today, with my own children, and how paranoid people have become. I wouldn’t even THINK about letting Gregory just go outside and ride his bike by himself. He is almost 9 years old, and I hardly ever even let him walk to school by himself, and it is only a block and a half, with two crossing guards, one on either side. Even now at his age I find myself looking over my shoulder when we are walking to make sure he is there, keeping Donovan strapped in the stroller much more than I would like to so he won’t wander off somewhere, checking both the kids each night before I go to bed to make sure they are still there and still breathing (and we live on the FOURTH floor).
And it kind of makes me sad, in a way, that my children cannot experience the same joys and FREEDOM that I did as a child, that they have to learn a certain amount a fear just to live. There have been several attempted abductions in our area over the past few months, and I find myself talking to my CHILD about being extra careful not to talk to ANYONE he doesn’t know, because these things have happened. And my little 8-year-old boy looks back at me with eyes too old for his years, and just says, “OK, Mom, I know.”
Daily Affirmation:
You must act as if it is impossible to fail. ~Ashanti Proverb

Whoa, good to know…

I took the Belief-O-Matic test, and here are my results. Dang, it feels good to know that, for now anyways, I am on the right track.
1. Neo-Paganism (100%)
2. Unitarian Universalism (89%)
3. Liberal Quaker (85%)
4. New Age (82%)
5. Mahayana Buddhism (81%)
6. Jainism (75%)
7. Reform Judaism (72%)
8. Theravada Buddhism (67%)
9. Liberal Protestant (61%)
10. Secular Humanism (60%)
11. Bah

Mar 1, 2002

Happy Friday, or Something

Here’s the Friday Five.
1. What’s your favorite vacation spot?
Well, I haven’t been on too many vacations in my life, but when I was 12, we went to Aspen, Colorado to ski, and I had a BLAST, saw a naked skiier, skiied in a T-shirt, got a sunburn, and skiied my ass off. So, yeah, so far, that would be it. =D
2. Where do you consider to be the biggest hell-hole on earth?
Hartford, Connecticut (*looks around – gee, I’m here now*).
3. What would be your dream vacation?
A year-long tour of Europe.
4. If you could go on a road-trip with anyone, who would it be and why?
That would DEFINITELY be Kari. She ROCKS my socks. =D
5. What are your plans for this weekend?
Ummmm….nothing, really. Laundry, cleaning, sleeping alone. Good stuff.