I am still alive. I think. Some days it doesn’t feel like it. This is really hard, guys. Brutal. I feel like the worst mother in the world. I feel helpless. At times hopeless. Cut off from everything, everyone. The kids are having a bit of a hard time adjusting. Gregory will be going to camp next week, though, so I hope that will help him. I am not able to access my site the way I would like. At the library here, you get EXACTLY 30 minutes, then you get logged off automatically. Barely enough time to read my mail, much less answer it or write a post, especially when the baby is awake. Luckily, today he decided to sleep, and Gregory is downstairs on the kid’s internet computers. So here I am. I still have things I want to write that I know I will be unable to at the moment, including finishing the seven deadly sins. I have lots of ideas, but no time. I cannot go on the internet at the shelter until I have been there for 30 days. :huh:
Anyway, I just wanted to tell you all how grateful I am that you are coming by to check in on me, and leaving me little notes. It is so encouraging, and it helps me to believe that maybe people haven’t forgotten me yet. :LOL: I really miss you guys, I miss coming to your sites, miss talking to you on AIM. I hope every one of you is well, your children are well, and that you really think on the good things in your life while you have them. Hopefully, I will be back in full force really soon, OK?
**[Edit 7/30/02]
I apologize for sounding a bit crazy in this post, I am stressed, and I guess I just forgot that most people really don’t know what is going on with me. I am currently in a homeless shelter, and the reason I can’t and won’t say where or for how long is because it is a domestic violence shelter. I am not going into any details at this time, as being in this crazy library doesn’t give me the time, but I have mentioned things here in this journal in the past, so if it is really all that interesting…..
Anyway, I am really going to make an effort to get here more and update, I think I need it. I have been feeling very alone, and as a result I isolate myself a bit when I really need to be reaching out. So…..I am going to reach and and touch y’all. ( Don’t get too excited, now :LOL: ) See you guys again REAL soon, OK? {/Edit]**

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Hey everyone. I am still alive. LoL. Just…things have changed a bit for now. I am currently staying in a shelter. I can’t say where, or for how long, but I am here, and things can’t possibly get any worse now, so I can only look up. I will hopefully be finishing up the seven deadly sins very soon so that I can devote more time to talking about my feelings about this whole experience. For now, I miss everyone, and hope to be in a position to surf all of your sites, or talk to you all very very soon. :kissy:

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