Just Another Day
I’m not really sure what has been going on with me lately. I just can’t seem to keep myself in a pleasant mood. I snap at people, I isolate myself from the outside, even online. Even the spring flowers blooming all around fail to cheer me, because I find myself thinking more often than not about how they are just doing their annual “HEY, look at me, I’m blooming! I’m beautiful! I’m…..dead!” dance. I find myself having less and less to say on here. Wondering more and more if I should just let this go. But I know I can’t. Somewhere, inside, there are still words. I just have to figure out how to pry the bricks loose from the wall.
I guess my feeling this way makes me more irritated because right now my life isn’t really that bad. My kids are healthy and safe, I have a roof over our heads, food to eat, and now I have something that is ALMOST a job ( :LOL: ). The cyber cafe where I was doing my internship has decided to take me on as a volunteer, but with a small stipend attached to it, until I find a job. It might not be much, but for me it is pretty exciting, and it is just good to have a reason to get up in the morning.
G is going to be TEN years old on the 24th! (Hint: cards and/or gifts would be nice…hehehe) I just can’t believe that I am going to have a child that is 10 years old. Wasn’t it just yesterday that he was this little 7-pound 4-ounce bundle with feet no longer than my forefinger? And now he is wearing size men’s 8 shoes. :huh: Time just keeps on marching onward, no matter how hard you wish it otherwise, doesn’t it?
