Sorry to take so long to get back, but when you are trapped in an apartment with two boys for four days straight, spending time on the computer is not exactly high on the “things I can do without being interrupted at least 20 times a minute” list.
So, anyway, since I am here, obviously, I installed my hard drive and everything appears to be working splendidly. Go me! Now, if I can just figure out where to get some thermal adhesive tape so i can install the processor that my friend sent me a while ago (I THINK I have determined that said processor won’t fry my motherboard….but don’t quote me yet.) then I might actually be able to leave my computer’s innards alone for a while. Until I get enough money for an internal DVD/R.
Thanksgiving was OK. Just me and the boys. They helped me cook. How cute are they? And whoa, I went from having NO turkey to having THREE turkeys within the space of three days. What the heck? People are so wonderful. So now I have two big frozen turkeys hanging out in my freezer. Can you say turkey for Christmas, and umm…..something else I will have to make up so I can cook it and get it out of there? At least the freezer is big enough!
I realized after I made my last post that it might have seemed like I was bitching about all the stuff we have been through in the past years. Quite the contrary, actually. This Thanksgiving I actually had MORE to be thankful for than ever before. Mostly I am just grateful that my kids and I are together, that we have made it this far, we are healthy, at least physically (lol), and that we are at least part-way along our journey to be ok. I can’t think of anything that would be better to be thankful for.
The only glitch in the holiday was D’s grandmother, who was supposed to come to our house for Thanksgiving. Unfortunately, less than a week before she was supposed to come, she decided that she couldn’t deal with the fact that she would not be able to smoke in the house, and instead must walk 10 steps to the communal porch that is on our floor. It was too restictive for her. Now, don’t get me wrong, I totally respect and adore this woman, and if that is her reasoning, then so be it. But what really upset me is when I told her that it hurt the kids’ feelings and that if she felt that way she should have made the decision before this and not so close to the holiday, and I didn’t think it was right. That’s all I said, no angry diatribe, because really, I was more sad that angry. So why does she become angry with ME? And suddenly start yelling “I made my decision, and you’ll just have to live with it.” Allllrighty then. Then she will have to live with us not coming to HER house and having to breathe in her smoke and come home with sore throats and smelly clothes.
And no, she didn’t call us to wish us Happy Thanksgiving, either.
This is why I have such a hard time telling people how I feel. When I do, they treat me like I have no right to feel the way I do. Arghhhh!
Now, I still have to fix my templates and add another skin that is ALMOST ready to go, and fix my gallery. I had a gallery script up that I love, but I just don’t have the money to shell out for the full version, so I am going back to Gallery, but just have to remember how I had it integrated into my site. And then upload the almost 80 pictures that curently make up my gallery. Whee! Give me a few on that one.

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OK, so I know I just got back, but my hard drive has been dying a slow death ever since I moved. If I turn my computer off COMPLETELY, when I turn it back on, the computer cannot recognize the hard drive, and it takes several restarts and a fixboot to get things back and running again. And I am kind of sick of leaving the computer on 24/7. MUCH too tempting. Sadly, after some research, I discovered that my hard drive is losing communication with the rest of the computer. Leave it to ME to have a non-communicative hard drive. So, I was able to pull just enough money out of thin air to get a purportedly halfway decent hard drive from Ebay. Well…we’ll see. I am about to install it. Let’s hope I don’t make a total mess of things. I have installed memory, a graphics board, a ZIP drive, and a CD drive….but a hard drive scares me. Go figure. Heh.
With that, it may be a few days before I have things reinstalled and running once again to my liking (I admit it, I am a total control freak when it comes to my computer. If I don’t want it to do something, it won’t. Damnit.) Maybe it comes from not having a lot of control over the kids now.
So I will leave you with these interesting tidbits in the extended entry, since I still haven’t filled everyone in on all the fascinating things that have happened since my self-sanity-enforced hiatus.

(more…)

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The New Birth Control Ban

Find out why growing numbers of doctors and pharmacists across the US are refusing to prescribe or dispense birth control pills

You could not even begin to imagine how much this pisses me off. How could any pharmacist or doctor just decide they are not going to dispense a medication? Do they not realize there are many other uses for the birth control pill than just contraception? I, myself, take BC for just such a non-contraceptive reason. In fact, the last time I wasn’t on BC, I bled for FIVE MONTHS STRAIGHT (since I rarely ever ovulate, my periods will build up and build up until they kind of burst, like a dam, then empty whatever was there, as long as it takes. Interesting how I ended up with two kids, eh? lol) Anyway, in order for me tog et back on the pill, my doctor had to do a D&C (a surgical procedure where they scrape the lining of the uterus). [sarcasm]OMG! Isn’t a D&C something they use to perform abortions with! What a horrifying procedure! We can’t let you have one of those either, you MIGHT have a fertilized egg in there somewhere![/sarcasm]. Un-freaking-likely. I would love someone to tell me they aren’t going to fill my prescription. It would be funny to time how fast I could get a lawyer to their door.
This is some scary crap, people. Now it’s not only abortion rights that are being threatened, it’s our right to monitor our own reproductive health. All because people BELIEVE something. It hasn’t been PROVEN. They just believe it. (Although to play devil’s advocate, the other side hasn’t PROVEN that the pill doesn’t allow the fertilized egg to implant in the uterus, they just kind of think that’s what happens.) But in any case, 95% of women have taken birth control at some point in their lives. 95%!! This is not some small, nonviable number. We need to fight back and we need to do it NOW, before we don’t have any right to.

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I was surfing on my new little fun-place Blog Explosion today, and came across this interesting blog who encouraged me to steal the following:
Three questions.
More fun! More craziness! More comments!
(A) First, recommend to me:
1. a movie
2. a book
3. a musical artist, song, or album
(B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want.
(C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything & say that you stole it from me.

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A long time ago I wrote a resume for my heart. I decided now would be a good time to revisit and update this little tidbit. Hope you enjoy. (Oh, and as an aside, I usually am not this uninteresting. Please have some patience with me while I continue to try to get this site up to par. It feels like I have been away MUCH longer than 9 months. I am still looking for the CD that has all of my other artwork on it, plus I should be getting my new(er) hard drive on Monday to replace my current dying one, so I will have to reinstall everything yet again when that happens. Plus, I am TRYING to do Nanowrimo again this year. Oh, and Word Racer on Yahoo! Games isn’t helping, either.)

Objectives: I would like to work in a friendly, loving and gentle environment that gives ample opportunity to breathe, and to grow, and to be able to fulfill my full potential.
Professional Experience:
(March 1994 – March 2003, August 2004 – present) Craig Towers (Corporate Offices)
Job Title: Just a Friend (With or Without Benefits)
Duties:
- Remaining within somewhat unclear boundaries
- Discovering new and amazing insights into life and myself
- Having patience through many periods of enforced stagnation
- Learning the true definition of a soul mate
- Determining that my definition doesn’t necessarily match someone else’s
- Not being afraid to finally let go
Reason for Leaving: Mutual dissatisfaction based on my own overstepping of boundaries, and the corporation’s refusal to articulate where the actual boundaries lie.
(February 1997 – June 2002) Corey Enterprises
Job Title: Insignificant Other
Duties:
- Loving unconditionally
- Maintaining acceptable level of buoyancy while being pushed down
- Expanding to incorporate additional family member
- Fulfilling all expected duties without complaint
Reason for Leaving: Extreme job disatisfaction and disillusionment, mostly pertaining to having to perform many duties not in my job description, and repeatedly getting unsatisfactory reviews despite putting forth best effort.
(October 1995 – September 1996) Ray Industries
Job Title: Loved One
Duties:
- Loving unconditionally
- Responsible for accepting many other people into the fold in direct relation to employer
- Learning how to laugh at myself
- Expected only to be myself
Reason for Leaving: Let go for failing to perform all job duties as expected.
(January 1993 – October 1994) Michael Productions
Job Title: Chick on The Side
Duties:
- Staying on the down-low emotionally, or never becoming too attached outwardly
- Delving into my inner recesses to reveal the real me
- Encouraged to become a stronger person
Reason for Leaving: Decided a career change was in order, and worked freelance for a while instead.
(July 1991 – January 1993) The Trevor Corporation
Job Title: Baby Girl
Duties:
- Loving as much as would be accepted
- Being understanding of a mercurial personality
- Being flexible with a wandering spirit
- Discovering the joys and pangs of first love
- Expanding to accept additional family member
Reason for Leaving: A better position opened up elsewhere after job satisfaction began dropping off precipitously due to several suspicious incidents within the job setting.
Education:
Roland’s Technical School for the Unlearned and Willing: Attended November 1988 – August 1989; Graduated with Honors
Major Accomplishments:
- Survived sexual abuse
- Survived emotional abuse
- Persevered through homelessness and single parenting (twice)
- Survived and rose above learning that the term family does not guarantee that you will be treated with respect or love
- Learned from mistakes
- Discovered that unconditional love does NOT mean unconditional acceptance of behavior
Weaknesses:
- Stubborn
- Malleable
- Overly-sensitive
- Sometimes TOO open and forgiving
- Tends to withdraw at first indication of pain
Strengths:
- Caring
- Giving
- Loyal
- Loving
- Forgiving
- Gentle
- Open
- Willing to try again and again

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SistersTalk
OK, so I’m not MUCH into politics, but I have been gaining more interest this year, and following that line of thought, I found a quite excellent blog yesterday right there on my sidebar through BlogSnob. Go visit and pontificate upon her witticisms. (heh)

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I think I finally get it now.
He’s Just Not That Into You
Dang…too bad I have wasted so much of my life just WISHING that he really WERE that into me…
Here’s to moving on!

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Sorry to have missed saying that before. Just when you THINK life will calm down, it just laughs at you.
I took the kids to the mall yesterday to trick or treat. It was cute and interesting, but OH so crowded! Yikes. But they were able to get their goodies and be safe and costume watch all at the same time. I can live with that.
And WHAT’S UP WITH THE BLOG SPAM???? Good grief! I leave for a few months and blog spam has overtaken the universe! Do these people have nothing better to do with their sad pathetic lives? Apparently not. This blog right now has moderated comments, but so far it seems like all I get are spam comments, so I may even move it to registration required only comments until they stop bothering me. Sorry for any inconvenience this causes, but registration really isn’t so terribly taxing.

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