First of all, thank all of you SO SO much for all of your support on my last post. Wow, even though I still feel sick to my stomach when I go back and read it, I am not going to let it get the best of me this time, and I just keep reading over the comments to keep myself on the right mindset. You guys are awesome! :bubbles:
OK, so to get right down to the point of this post, yes, Gregory is having even MORE dramatic adventures in middle school. Seems that once again his homework is slipping up. WHAT is the deal with this? I know it’s kind of the age, but I swear, if I lied about my homework as much as this boy does, I’d have been in the doghouse – or smacked across the room. I went in today to observe one of his classes for the ‘Adopt-a-Class’ Day or whatever they called it. It was pretty cool, but the real reason I went was just to get a chance to talk to his teachers, becuase lately it’s like all my time is sucked up every day and I can’t find the time to take yet two MORE busses. But I have a conference scheduled now for Friday with his homeroom/English teacher, and I was able to talk to two other teachers today, so I am beginning to get more of a picture than just what comes fro Gregory’s side.
I guess I am getting a bit more irritated lately because he just doesn’t want to go. The constant complaining about the harrassment from other kids is getting old. I mean – it’s middle school. There comes a time when you need to get the hel over some things. There is only so much I can do. He isn’t likely to become some bizarre trenchcoat-wearing, gun-toting freakazoid, and he does admit that there are times when he ISN’T teased. Sometimes I wonder if it’s just yet another of the myriad ways he tries to get my attention somehow. It’s doubtful I will ever really know, but all I can do is listen to him and get him into another school for next year. And figure out a way to help him get these grades up.
I mean, he hates school SO bad that yesterday, he goes out a bit late to the bus, and comes back to tell me he missed it. OK, crap, I have to take him to school, end up getting there an hour late cause I had to get myself and DJ ready so I could take DJ to school, too. So why do I find out later that Gregory did NOT miss the bus, but supposedly fell ASLEEP waiting for it, and when he opened his eyes, the kids were gone and the bus was pulling away? Ugh….I wonder if a time will come when there are no stories that can get any more strange. LoL
I don’t suppose I will ever know if he really did doze off or if he just subliminally didn’t want to go to school.

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OK, this is NOT something I normally talk about on here. Mostly out of embarrassment and fear, and not wanting to jinx any work I may be doing in that direction. But today was a good day, and I decided I might as well share my progress this once.
I have a weight problem. A (groan now please) large weight problem. I have always had somewhat of one, but over the past 5 years or so it has gotten grossly out of hand. The combination of stress and a second child spiralled me out of control. At this time last year I weighed my highest weight ever. 296 pounds. Just typing out that number fills me with self-loathing and guilt and excuses. But I have decided that enough is enough. It is my belief that all of my hard work on my INSIDE is FINALLY trying to make it on to the outside. A lot of people I know lately seem to be going the route of the gastric bypass. I have no problem with this, and honestly I have even seriously considered it myself. But, right now, I am nowhere near ready for something like that, and I think for me it is healthier to try in the regular way once again. Although, if I fail this time, I know not what else I could do…
I have known I was losing weight, but it hasn’t been so much a concentrated effort as a gradual thinking about what I need to change, and then doing it, and not beating myself up over my numerous failures, but just getting up and trying again. Like…the weight is just the next thing I need to tackle, not some insurmoutable, incomprehensible mountain. I visited a nutritionist today, and found out that I had lost another 4 pounds in the past 3 weeks, making my total weight loss to date 27 pounds. Not a huge number, but then as far as I know I have only been losing steadily for about 4-5 months now. So I think I will take it. I also joined a nutrition group that meets once a week for 8 weeks, starting tomorrow. I am going to give myself a goal of 12 pounds to lose in these 8 weeks.
Any advice? Fun exercise programs? Recipes? Old exercise equipment you want to sell cheap? Wish me luck? Come on, I need to lose a whole entire person here! Bye-bye, old me!

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