On My Way
OK, this is NOT something I normally talk about on here. Mostly out of embarrassment and fear, and not wanting to jinx any work I may be doing in that direction. But today was a good day, and I decided I might as well share my progress this once.
I have a weight problem. A (groan now please) large weight problem. I have always had somewhat of one, but over the past 5 years or so it has gotten grossly out of hand. The combination of stress and a second child spiralled me out of control. At this time last year I weighed my highest weight ever. 296 pounds. Just typing out that number fills me with self-loathing and guilt and excuses. But I have decided that enough is enough. It is my belief that all of my hard work on my INSIDE is FINALLY trying to make it on to the outside. A lot of people I know lately seem to be going the route of the gastric bypass. I have no problem with this, and honestly I have even seriously considered it myself. But, right now, I am nowhere near ready for something like that, and I think for me it is healthier to try in the regular way once again. Although, if I fail this time, I know not what else I could do…
I have known I was losing weight, but it hasn’t been so much a concentrated effort as a gradual thinking about what I need to change, and then doing it, and not beating myself up over my numerous failures, but just getting up and trying again. Like…the weight is just the next thing I need to tackle, not some insurmoutable, incomprehensible mountain. I visited a nutritionist today, and found out that I had lost another 4 pounds in the past 3 weeks, making my total weight loss to date 27 pounds. Not a huge number, but then as far as I know I have only been losing steadily for about 4-5 months now. So I think I will take it. I also joined a nutrition group that meets once a week for 8 weeks, starting tomorrow. I am going to give myself a goal of 12 pounds to lose in these 8 weeks.
Any advice? Fun exercise programs? Recipes? Old exercise equipment you want to sell cheap? Wish me luck? Come on, I need to lose a whole entire person here! Bye-bye, old me!
