To answer the question raised, no, that post down there is not a work of fiction. more’s the pity. Thank you for your support.
I. HATE. Liars.
What the hell is it that makes a person pretend to be something they are not on the internet?? OK, yeah, whatever, I know all about the whole fantasy crap or whatever. But I am talking about willfully deceiving someone, making them believe you are something you are not, then being truly surprised when your ass is caught out.
Yes, I have become a victim of this behavior today. I know you are saying “w t f, Tricia, you’ve been on the internet for 8 years. do you not know by now to not let yourself get too caught up with someone?” Yes. I know. But in that 8 years I have never had a serious friendship or anything else with someone that lied on that caliber. Just lucky, I guess. I mean, not everyone I have met has been GREAT, but at least they were honest about it. Is it SO wrong that I try to give people the benefit of the doubt? Not at first. But after days of wonderful conversations and laughter and sharing, and really feeling a genuine connection, how else am I supposed to take something? Then when I find out, you come up with some shit like you didn’t know I was going to turn out to be so great, and you forgot you sent me a bogus pic at first??? Am I REALLY that lonely and desperate that I am going to start falling for this type of bullshit??? Hell no.
I am who I am, I am not capable of being someone else, even for show. I have never sent anyone a fake picture of me. It wouldn’t even occur to me. If you don’t like me, you just don’t. How much MORE would you not like me if things progressed and you started thinking something was there, then found out I sent you some fake pic and that I don’t look anything like that? And no, it’s not about looks at ALL. If you are going to lie about something as big as that, what ELSE are you lying about? What other deceits have you practiced upon me that I in my naivetee have accepted as truth, while for all I know you are behind your monitor laughing your ass off at how easily I am playing into your hands. Well, you got caught, and now everyone can laugh at YOU. Fuck you.
You know, after I found this out today, I just started bawling. The whole time I am thinking to myself, “What the HELL am I crying for? I don’t even know this guy.” Then it hit me. It wasn’t about this new person at all. It was about HIM. It’s ALWAYS about HIM. No matter how much bravado I slung around in the Cookie Man post, it was all just a bunch of crap. For better or worse, my heart has been given away, and it refuses to be taken back. And there are no magic answers to that conundrum. And what’s worse, I, in my selfish need to find an answer to my OWN issues, hurt HIM in the process, and made myself look like a selfish ass. Way to go.
You know what, I think I will keep my unrequited love. If that means I will be alone for the rest of my life, so be it. At least it’s the kind of bullshit I KNOW. NEW bullshit is not worth the time it takes to type the words KISS MY ASS.
Categories: Miscellany
13 Comments
Denise · January 11, 2005 at 3:00 pm
Right on!!! People who use the anonymity of the ‘Net to lie and create whole other identities are just wrong…sick and wrong. I’m so sorry you were hurt. (I got here via BE, by the way.)
Daphne · January 11, 2005 at 4:54 pm
{{{ Tricia }}}
Rhonda · January 11, 2005 at 6:32 pm
Girrrl. We’ve all made THAT mistake. We just assume our b.s. meter works on the internet. It does not. I keep having to remember we are, after all, animals of a kind ourselves. We need to be able to look into someone’s eyes, sniff them and let our instincts tell us what is what. It’s too easy to disguise the fact your Ted Bundy behind a monitor. Sucks hard.
Crackersnacker · January 11, 2005 at 8:05 pm
Its so easy for people to lie on the net because they can tell you as much or as little as they want about themselves on the net…which is why I never look for friends over a computer, Im always polite and friendly with people I talk too but never trust anyone I cant see or talk to face to face.
Dont feel upset that it happend to you…thats how we learn through trial and error, their are some real crazies out their and some will do anything for attention.
honestyrain · January 11, 2005 at 9:31 pm
can you imagine liking yourself so little that you would pretend to be someone else? can you imagine the weak sort of person you must be? take pity on this poor fool and be thankful that you have made your discovery so that you can move on and be open to the person who is right for you.
there is no love until you have shovelled thru all the shit. we all go thru it. we all get thru it. you will too.
RisibleGirl · January 11, 2005 at 9:46 pm
Been there too, gal. It makes me sick to my stomach to think about it.
I don’t know why people do that, I really don’t.
(((((((Tricia)))))))))))
Swt GA HunnyB · January 12, 2005 at 11:00 am
This happens so much. I’m sorry it has happened to you. (HUGS)
Cav · January 12, 2005 at 4:20 pm
Dude, I hate liars too, look how much we have in common?! ha.
Thanks for coming by and lifting my spirits, appreciate it.
http://clubcav.blogspot.com/2004/11/theres-my-story-morning-glory.html
Andrea · January 13, 2005 at 2:35 pm
I mete my husband through the internet and thankfully he didn’t lie about anything. Sad that you had to go through shit liek this!
Thanks for stopping by on my blog!
Chris · January 13, 2005 at 7:06 pm
Congratulations! You’re an official member of the Misuse of the Internet Victims Club. We are a large and generally pissed off crowd. So sorry it happened to you, but you seem like a strong person–I’m sure your survive.
By the way, LOVE your blog template!
Bob the Battery Operated ... etc · January 13, 2005 at 7:19 pm
Tell me who it was and I’ll go and steal his batteries :>
Heather · January 13, 2005 at 8:34 pm
I had that happen to me one time, and it completly broke my heart. I’m sorry you had to go through that. (And the post below honey, that just scares me. I’m hope you were able to get help and make it stop!)
Heather
Sunshine · January 13, 2005 at 10:02 pm
I totally understand what you experienced. I fell in love with a man on the net and he was a man that I always dreamed of loving. He did make a mistake soon in my time of loving him and show me his true personality. The pain could of ended up a lot worse. I do have some cool friends on the net. But romance is not an internet thing.
Sunshine
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