Just Another Day
I’m not really sure what has been going on with me lately. I just can’t seem to keep myself in a pleasant mood. I snap at people, I isolate myself from the outside, even online. Even the spring flowers blooming all around fail to cheer me, because I find myself thinking more often than not about how they are just doing their annual “HEY, look at me, I’m blooming! I’m beautiful! I’m…..dead!” dance. I find myself having less and less to say on here. Wondering more and more if I should just let this go. But I know I can’t. Somewhere, inside, there are still words. I just have to figure out how to pry the bricks loose from the wall.
I guess my feeling this way makes me more irritated because right now my life isn’t really that bad. My kids are healthy and safe, I have a roof over our heads, food to eat, and now I have something that is ALMOST a job ( :LOL: ). The cyber cafe where I was doing my internship has decided to take me on as a volunteer, but with a small stipend attached to it, until I find a job. It might not be much, but for me it is pretty exciting, and it is just good to have a reason to get up in the morning.
G is going to be TEN years old on the 24th! (Hint: cards and/or gifts would be nice…hehehe) I just can’t believe that I am going to have a child that is 10 years old. Wasn’t it just yesterday that he was this little 7-pound 4-ounce bundle with feet no longer than my forefinger? And now he is wearing size men’s 8 shoes. :huh: Time just keeps on marching onward, no matter how hard you wish it otherwise, doesn’t it?
could it be stress? maybe taking care of the kids? maybe you could try talking to a psychiatrist if you want… i’m not sure you would want to though.
btw i love the new skin!!
Congrats to your little guy and to you for reaching the double digits! How great!
Double digits… so cool!!
We’re all in double digits…
My oldest child is 32 with a 3 1/2 yr old precious daughter of her own.
My youngest is 15 and a wonderful young woman herself.
Middle child is a strapping, sweet spirited young man.
We were all at the 15yr old’s softball game last night… I looked at all my babies and wondered the same thing… where in the world did those tiny little creatures go?… had I turned my head?… how in the world can a young thing, such as myself, have this beautiful grandchild?… if I hadn’t turned my head… did I sneeze and shut my eyes briefly?
Enjoy, enjoy each and every day with your child… you’re likely to blink or sneeze one day yourself!!
Blessings!!
Hang in there; the funk will pass–it always does!
Well, haven’t we been been breaking down on bricks lately! I humbly feel u on what how you feel like you say less and less nowadays. I feel that way too, and perhaps because everything is coming so short-handed nowadyas, not to mention al ot of responsibilities coming up on my door for me to make happen.
But I am proud that you are working on that internship, it is beautiful! The almost-a-job- will be a job, and that I know will happen.
Good luck, and I will be back! Jood!
love to you Miss Tricia.. you are a beautiful soul.
Please don’t even consider stopping blogging. Yours was the first blog that I ever read. I found it when I was going through a rough time. It sound a bit odd, but your blog gave me hope in people again. The words will come back you.
Congratulations to you and your son on his birthday! I hope that he has a great day and that you have a stress-free time planning his celebration.
Hi grrrl!
Sorry I haven’t been to your website – but the wedding planning and has just taken over my life. I’ haven’t posted much on BOB lately – jema just hooked me up on livejournal. You’ll have to stop by when you have some time!
I have been in a rut lately myself, mostly due to the whole job thing. I feel your pain!