On My Own

The following post is a bit of fanciful melodrama meant only to amuse and amaze myself, so how considerate of me to place it in the more spot, n’est-ce pas?
Hey, guess what? SCHOOL is back in session tomorrow!! Bye-bye, boys! :crazy:

One of my favorite musicals is Les Miserables. My favorite song from this musical since I first heard it when I was around 15 years old has always been On My Own (right-click and save or I will hunt you down and feed you to the dingos). Was this some strange kind of premonition? Did I know, even then, that I was doomed to play the part of Eponine in my own life-size drama? Too bad though that even if I WAS dying in his arms I still wouldn’t hear what I would like. But, the advantage I have over Eponine, I suppose, is that I no longer think I am willing KNOW I am not willing to take it that far. But I still love this song. I cry almost every time I hear it. Am I a sap or what?

Eponine
And now I’m all alone again
Nowhere to turn, no one to go to
Without a home without a friend
Without a face to say hello to
And now the night is near
I can make believe he’s here
Sometimes I walk alone at night
When everybody else is sleeping
I think of him and I’m happy
With the company I’m keeping
The city goes to bed
And I can live inside my head
On my own
Pretending he’s beside me
All alone
I walk with him till morning
Without him
I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes
And he has found me
In the rain the pavement shines like silver
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness, the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever
And I know it’s only in my mind
That I’m talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say, there’s a way for us
I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone
The river’s just a river
Without him
The world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers
I love him
But every day I’m learning
All my life
I’ve only been pretending
Without me
His world would go on turning
A world that’s full of happiness
That I have never known
I love him
I love him
I love him
But only on my own