Avoidance?

Well. Seems like a lot of fluff posting and test taking this past week. I think I have finally figured out why. I have been avoiding talking about things. I do that a lot in real life, and it was something I had told myself I would try not to do here. So of course I did. LoL. OK, I guess maybe it’s not a lot of really BAD stuff going on, as much as I am just feeling stressed in general, so any little thing will just set me off.
1. Gregory. We saw the pediatrician last week. She looked him over, of course he appears fine now. She contacted the cardiologist, who finally got back to me on Monday. Gregory has an appointment February 22nd with them, and upon reading the EKG, they said it looks fine. So I shouldn’t be worrying anymore right? Riiiight. Tomorrow a technician from some medical equipment company will be coming in to fit Gregory with a “loop recorder” which will record his heartbeat/rate for a period of time. I am not sure yet how long it will have to be on. Somewhere between 24 hours and 1 week I think. I’ll find out tomorrow I suppose LoL. So hopefully this recorder will be a reliable indicator as to whether or not something is going on.
2. Corey. But I have nothing to say about him right now. Moving on.
3. My job (or lack thereof.) This babysitting thing is really beginning to stress me out completely. Yeah, technically, I only watch the one baby, but he is a difficult one, then after school there is STILL Ernie and Ronnie and my own kids still there, and on Tuesdays and Thursdays I walk to my second childcare job for two hours, than walk home, getting back home around 9pm. *sigh*
Then add on top of that the fact that I can barely sleep because I am always sleeping alone, and so far I can’t get used to that, (I can’t get it to feel RIGHT without him there next to me, never mind the constant thinking about and wondering where he is all night), and Donovan not wanting to go to bed before 10pm all of a sudden, and it all sums up to me being TIRED. This week I haven’t even really been online too much. Haven’t felt like chatting. And I have even been neglecting all my good online daily reads, friends, and loves. So I think I just need to find a way to slow down a little, take some time for myself, even take a break. Ugh. But that entails taking time to figure out how to do that. LoL. How to find time to figure out how to find time for yourself. Things that make you go…hmmmmmm.
Daily Affirmation:
Don’t be reckless with other people’s hearts, and don’t put up with people who are reckless with yours. ~ Kurt Vonnegut, Jr