It’s Been a Long Time, Baby

I suppose it is very wrong of me to have neglected this blog for so long. Especially as some of you may have been waiting for the results of my visit to the neurosurgeon. I don’t really have any tangible excuses except for the usual busy at school, busy with the kids, and kind of trying to recover from said neurosurgeon’s words.
Not that it was anything too staggeringly earthshattering. Basically…the neurosurgeon stated that every doctor I had seen was wrong. I DO have a mass inside my brain, but that it appears to be an incidental finding, i.e. it is something that has been there for a long time, possibly since birth. Furthermore, he thinks that this thing is NOT causing my headaches, and in fact I do not even have hydrocephalus. I do appear to have enlarged ventricles, but again he attributes this to something that is a long-standing-possibly-from-birth-and-therefore-not-harmful thing. The mass is indeed in the path of my first and second ventricles in my brain, but he pointed out an itty bitty passageway around the mass that he was positive that fluid was finding its way around. And since my third ventricle is not enlarged, this is why he is sure that I do not have excess fluid or pressure buildup.
Well, as you might imagine, I was greatly relieved to have this news. Even elated. But, in a way, I felt slightly adrift in a strange sea. You know, KNOWING is better than the unknown, so with this news, the possibility that I KNEW the cause for my headaches was gone, so now its like going back to the starting line, and still these headaches remain. I am definitely seeking a second opinion, just to make sure, because it is a bit odd that all these other doctors think one way, and this one doctor does not, but like I said before, this is why I am not a neurosurgeon.
So for now this is where I stand. Not facing surgery or anything worse. Happy for now. But still with headaches. I have learned to kind of ignore them as much as possible and go on about my life. Which is extremely full enough as it is. School is going pretty well, so far I have A’s in every class, even Visual Basic, which was the one I was worried I might get lost in, but my background in teaching myself html and cgi and some php has really been a help for me. Not that the languages are all that similar, it’s just that previous knowledge has put me into some kind of “programmer’s mindset,” or at least that’s the only way I have of describing it. But whatever it is, I am grateful for it, because I think if I was having any trouble whatsoever in my classes, I would definitely be the worse for it, seeing as how most of the time I am doing my homework after 10pm. :LOL:
Anyways, it is starting to look as though my blog is nothing but an interview other people blog. And still two more to think up and type up in between everything else. It’s a darn good thing that no one is really reading me anymore then, isn’t it?? :biggrin: I won’t even say this time that I will be making efforts to write more. I’ll just do what I can. Plus NaNoWriMo is coming up again next month. I HIGHLY doubt I will win this year either, but I had so much fun that I will be giving it a go again.