Well, gee, I sounded like a whiny little brat yesterday. I still feel basically the same, but I think I will refrain from posting about it anymore here. It sounds even more pathetic typed out than in does in my head! Anyway, on with the Monday Mission 2.12
1. What helps you get started every morning?
COFFEE!!! The Goddess Caffeina, The Great Java the Cup. I really NEED to cut down, but I can’t seem to live without it. Support groups, anyone?
2. What is the most memorable thing anyone has ever made for you?
Gregory made me a little picture of a heart with a note attached that says “Dear Mom, I love you so much that I think I am going to explode.” I still have it tacked up on my corkboard, and it can still make me cry.
3. What music are you currently listening to in your car?
Well, I don’t have a car, but if I did, there would be Maxwell, India Arie, Nas, Meshell Ndegeocello, Cree Summer, and Lenny Kravitz definitely. Probably some Disney Silly Songs in there too. LoL
4. One thing I like to do is buy USA Today on Wed, Thur and Fri. Even if I don’t have the money, I will find a way to buy them, because I just love reading them. What is one “splurge” you allow yourself, even when you shouldn’t?
I LOVE all kinds of body lotions, bath gels and bubble baths, shampoos and conditioners, good smelling stuff, and whenever I see one I haven’t tried I find myself picking it up. *smh* I think I need some new cabinets in the bathroom hehehe.
5. Have you ever been given a “second chance?” What happened and did you make the most of it?
Hmmm…not something I want to talk about now, but yes, I have been given lots of second chances, and no, for the most part, I can’t seem to learn my lesson.
6. Do you have a lot of friends outside of your own ethnic background?
Actually, the vast majority of my friends/associates are outside of my ethnic background. Why? Beats me. Maybe I have more in common, but really, I just tend to like who I like, and not think about ethnicity too much, so I was actually kind of surprised when I thought about this. In real life, I have about 2-3 white friends, and I don’t talk to them overly much. Even online, my white friends are few and far between.
7. What was the last situation that really, really pissed you off?
I don’t get to that point very often. Since I had kids, it almost ALWAYS happens because of something that gets done to them. So the last time I was REALLLLY pissed off was when Gregory was in first grade, and our neighbor, who doesn’t like me because I am white, told her children (who were 6, 11, and 12 at the time) to follow Gregory home from school and beat him up. (yes, she really told them to do this, that’s what those kids told the police after I had to get them involved.) I don’t think I have ever been more pissed in my life. That someone would TELL a 5th and 6th grader to HIT a small 1st grader is just heinous to me. This was when I was about four months pregnant with Donovan, and she also threatened to beat ME up (the woman is in her 30’s for pete’s sake), and kill my “ugly” baby. WTF? WE are the adults, if you don’t like ME, tell ME, how DARE you take it out on a child that never did ANYTHING to you or anyone else in his life?? Dang…OK…so I guess I can still get pissed about it. It doesn’t help that we STILL have to live next door to them.
BONUS: Who’s your friend when things get rough?
Kari
Categories: Miscellany
3 Comments
Kari · March 26, 2002 at 12:20 pm
THIS made my day seein this. Thank you so much girl…I feel most of the time that I am neglectful, and somewhat selfish…so this makes me feel really good. Now, about the post before…we’ve all been there. I’ll speak for me…I have been there. I think every other day I’m writin somethin along the lines of liking my little dark corner and will people please leave me the hell alone (lol)…no one ever does…(thank god) but I do write and or feel that way daily. You don’t have to apologize to me for feelin whatever way you are. Sometimes I don’t respond right away because I know some areas are sensitive (like open wounds) and I’m not sure when and how to go around poking into them. So I sit back…keep an eye on your crazy ass, and then approach somewhat cautiously. *grin* The shit that goes on in our heads are little peices of us that just don’t feel as though we deserve shit. Sometimes they taint how we hear other people around us too…and for that reason it’s good to put it out…in some way shape or form. I, am not the voice inside your head. When you make mistakes I’m not thinkin to myself “that’s what i get for askin tricia…” That’s a voice that only you hear (not to make you appear crazy but … you know what i’m sayin *wink*). You are so hard on yourself, sweetie…that I think sometimes you need me to make you cut yourself some slack. 🙂 I love you…you are a valuable valuable person, You are beautiful inside AND out, you are smart, and charming, and insightful, and sweet. You have been a great friend to me…I feel a better friend to me than I have been to you. I celebrate you! Got it? I’ll be back in a week to tell you again.
Phira · March 26, 2002 at 1:26 pm
I don’t think I feel comfortable commenting on your musings but since when has that stopped me. Tricia I have been searching high and low for your damn website and voila! here I am once again. ha ha ha..
I wish there was something I could do to help you get out of this rut you are in.. When I read your musings whether they are new ones or the old ones from previous sites I get sad inside. Listen up girlfriend! You have been through a lot of bullshit in your life and yet here you are, a survivor. You have lived through it all and I know somewhere inside of you is that voice “I AM PROUD OF ME!” Be proud of yourself Tricia cause can’t nobody break your stride if you don’t let them.
The Goddess doesn’t place things in our path, we do.. either go around those obstacles or barrel through them.
Miss you girl and I am always thinking about you!
Alex · March 29, 2002 at 12:33 am
((((Tricia))))) not much to say except love ya!!!
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