*sigh* It is really hard to write this right now. This will probably be my last post for quite some time. The children and I are moving, maybe tomorrow, definitely by Friday. And the place we are going for the next few months will not have any type of internet access, and I have no idea if there is a library within walking distance. So, I will bid you all adieu, until we meet again. If I was unable to personally say goodbye to any of you, I sincerely apologize. I will miss ALL of you SO much, and I hope that now and again you stop by and leave me a little note or something, so that when I get a chance to get my e-mail, I will be able to smile a bit. If any of you have my attbi address, I will be deleting that one, but my MM.net address will still be valid, or you can also reach me here, but since I cannot guarantee that I will be able to check my mail at all for a month or so, if you use the hotmail one, please forgive me if I do not receive your message. I love you guys, and I will be back when I can. :kissy:
So, all that sad crap said, on with the next deadly sin. I hope I remember which one is next the next time I can post.


A strong passion or emotion of displeasure or antagonism, excited by a real or supposed injury or insult to one’s self or others, or by the intent to do such injury.

Right now I am angry. So angry that there are times I wish I was allowed the freedom to punch a hole through the wall. Beat my head against it. Punch someone ELSE in the face. HARD. And I am afraid of that anger. Because I don’t feel as though I have any place to put it. And I think that might be the key. Anger is a healthy emotion, but it needs to have an outlet. It needs to be released somehow. And if it is released regularly in a proper way, such as by boxing or lifting weights or other physical activity, or by creativity, or by talking it out, then it never reaches such a toxic level as to get us into trouble. We never need to reach that level where we are capable of hurting ourselves or someone else just to get some release from these feelings.
People today are at highly toxic levels of anger. Ever-increasing numbers of tales of road rage, school shootings, hate crimes, domestic violence, child abuse, and other senseless acts of horror are very telling symptoms of this. We live in a rush-rush no-time-for-you kind of society, where we seem to almost be encouraged to forget about our neighbors, to disregard them because they are probably out to get us too. And the government’s response of adding more and more laws is in no way curbing the flow, in fact, it is only creating more anger as people chafe under the rope of their lost freedoms.
I really don’t have any answers for this disheartening trend. Hell, I can’t even stem my own anger right now. Anger is frightening. Anger can feel overpowering. Letting your anger out in unhealthy ways can feel powerful…for a moment. Almost like a drug. You need to feel that power more and more in order for it to give you the same satisfaction. And in the meantime, people around you suffer because of it. I think it just really takes each person taking responsibility for themselves. And we can only start the process one person at a time. Stop letting television raise our kids. Talk to each other. Stop holding everything in. You don’t have to be all big and bad and proud. Be angry. Embrace it. And then let it go. Because life is way too short to walk through it in a red-tinged haze. I’d rather wear my rose-tinted glasses.

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Shunda · June 20, 2002 at 3:04 am

oh lawd, everybody’s leaving! Tricia, I truly hate to see you go, but I know you need to do your thing and take care of yourself and your kids. And I will keep in touch with you, believe that. I really liked this post in particular, because everything you stated is so true. Anger is very unhealthy when not dealt with, and it’s great that you can realize the anger you have, but also deal with it and let it go. If only other people were as smart. Take care of yourself sweetie :hello: ((((hugs)))

Darni · June 20, 2002 at 8:25 am

i have courted anger for the longest. we are practically lovers now.
:wah: i’m sorry to hear that you are departing, even though its not forever. take care (as I know you will) and I’ll pop in every now and again . . . . sigh, everybody’s leaving.

Tashia · June 20, 2002 at 9:06 am

Tricia Wicia!!!! I think I missed you already…. :wah: But I hate goodbyes and this aint really a goodbye anyway…As soon as you get thangs in order and together I know you will be back..And you know what? I will be right here embracin’ you with open arms….
You are doin’ the right thang Tricia…I support you 150%..Keep your head up for the kids..And when all is said and done…trust me..u gonna feel like a new woman..all rejuvenated and everythang..It’s rough now gurl..That I know..But takin’ the first step is always the hardest…
I am proud of you Tricia…You deserve so much better than what you were gettin’..I’m glad you actually realize that now…I sent you my home
and cell # again just in case you aint have it on hand…If you need anythang, call me boo boo. Whateva I can do you know I will sweety..*muah* to you and the kids….

hoopty · June 20, 2002 at 12:28 pm


Emerald Sky · June 20, 2002 at 3:59 pm

You go girl. πŸ˜‰ Get it? Ha. Seriously, I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself, Trisha. Come back soon! We love you!

Lady Phoxxe · June 20, 2002 at 4:02 pm

Missing you already:( Drop a line at any point!
{{{{{{{ Tricia }}}}}}}

Lloyd R. Belthazar · June 20, 2002 at 7:28 pm

Hmm.. I just want to say that this is EXACTLY the reason why I have a website and I journalize my life. Is not because it’s a fun thing or to make some extra bucks πŸ˜€ but because… I need to vent out. I had a problem.. back in 1998, and its a very personal thing, but anyway… when I started making websites and doing some journal-like posts at least, I found out that I feel so much better because anger really contains me, and I am able to rid myself of that anger because of my journal.
There are also many reasons why people are angry. But I think it’s either of 2 reasons.
01. They do not see the whole point or reason why they are experiencing such crisis.
02. They seek the blame through others than themselves.
Youa nd the kids have fun okay? allrighty.

Lynn R. · June 21, 2002 at 8:44 am

I’m missing you already.
The Goddesses will bring you back with great haste!! *lol* {{hugs}}

Sue · June 21, 2002 at 4:30 pm

(((((((((Tricia)))))))))))) take care and hurry back! I’ll miss you :wah:

su(zi)e · June 22, 2002 at 10:15 am

hurry back. and take care of yourself for us.

stacey · June 22, 2002 at 11:20 am

’cause you won’t know what you’ve got till it’s gone. Hey, Tricia.. I hope everything works out for you, I come to catch up and I’m like, oh dang, she’s leaving? You’re in my prayers. hope you come back soon.

Lady Phoxxe · June 22, 2002 at 6:03 pm

Just stopping by, missing you. Goddess protect and keep you.

lynn · June 22, 2002 at 10:24 pm

Stay safe.. You are loved πŸ™‚

Felicia · June 25, 2002 at 4:46 pm

I am so glad Tricia that I have come to know you and you will be missed dearly. Pls. email me when you are back πŸ™‚ Good luck and god bless.

Christy · June 28, 2002 at 10:23 pm

Hate to see you go! :huh: Keep safe and hug those kids tight. See you when you come back! :hello:

Tashia.. · July 1, 2002 at 12:18 pm

Thinkin’ about ya Tricia. Love you sweety! Kiss the bebe kids for me… :LOL:

tiffani · July 4, 2002 at 12:42 am

Out of the seven, this one I suffer from the most. When I pray, I this is the only thing I ask from God and that’s to take away my anger….I don’t think it’s possible though (or his will), but I hate being so angry…it drains the life out of me!
hope everything is well and good luck with the move! πŸ™‚

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