Sitting here, at my own ancient dinosaur of a computer, typing this post, feels extremely surreal. Wait, that’s a vast understatement. I can still barely believe it.
I am out of the shelter. Already it seems like some kind of creepy dream that wakes you from your sleep in the middle of the night to sit up and look around nervously, sure that the dream will follow you even into wakefulness. I hope I never in my life ever have to go through all of that again, or have to bring my children along for the terrible ride. Even now, I am not quite where I need to be in my life, but I will say that right now I temporarily have a stable, safe place to call my own. And I am no longer subjected to a person whose sole goal in life seemed to be to make myself and my two boys as miserable as possible. I feel calmer, more relaxed, a little more like myself. I hope to find the rest of the pieces of myself that have gone into hiding during this sad, lonely time, but I know I need to learn to be patient. It took almost six years to break me down completely, I cannot possibly expect to build myself back up immediately. But I am SO glad to have this journal back. (It was the strangest thing, I DID close this site down, then I guess it reappeared again, like magick. Maybe this site doesn’t want to be held down and told what to do, either. 🙂 )
I want to say that I SO TOTALLY appreciate all of the messages and thoughts that came my way while I was gone. It will take me a bit to go through them, so please don’t feel bad if I haven’t replied to you yet. But ALL of you have meant the world to me while I was feeling so cut off from reality. I also will be redoing a few sections of my site. Who knows how long that will take. :LOL: For obvious reasons, I won’t really be talking too much about really personal stuff for a bit, but I will be posting as much as I can, and finishing my Seven Deadly Sins and whatnot. And I can’t WAIT to get back into reading ALL of your sites, old AND new! If any of you have changed URLs recently or anything, or if I forget to visit you in the next few weeks, please let me know? I lost all of my bookmarks (grr), so hopefully my link list is still up-to-date. (OK, I am just trying to sound normal right here in this paragraph, bear with me.)
The kids are doing as well as can be expected. Gregory has done a couple of school switches, but on the whole he is settling in nicely at the school he is curently in. Of course, he is older, so he understands a bit more, which makes it easier for me. He is happy to have it be just us. Donovan (who recently turned TWO YEARS OLD!! Oh, man, I can’t believe it, my little baby!) has had a bit of a tougher time, mostly transitioning into all the different places. But he already is calling this place home, and he wants to go to school just like his big brother. 🙂
Speaking of Donovan, he will probably wake up from his nap soon, so I better start wrapping this up. I have more to say, but I just wanted to make sure I let everyone know I was back, before I started getting stalked. :LOL: I just wanted to say thank you to the sweetest, most precious friend a girl was ever lucky enough to have, without whom not only would I have not had the courage to leave my situation, but I also wouldn’t be on here now telling you all about it. I love you, girl. And to two other wonderful ladies, it will be a great relief being able to talk to you guys again. :kissy:
Tee · September 24, 2002 at 1:26 pm
Tricia I am so emotional right now. I wanna cry! I am so glad you are back and safe and in a betta environment. Girl the worst part is ova! Yeah you still got alot of adjustin’ to do but it’s all good! I love you so much and kiss the kids for me. We are gonna talk really really soon. We gotta help you get your life back to the normal. And if that means me talkin’ time out my busy shcedule to stalk you and call you and act like the fool that you know me to be so be it! ROTFL!!!!!!!!! I love you gurly and we will talk soon soon soon! 😀
alex · September 24, 2002 at 11:10 pm
:lovey: :lovey: :lovey:
what can i say except i am *so*so*so* happy you are back!!!! you were missed, but never forgotten!!!!! xoxoxox, alex
Shunda · September 25, 2002 at 2:19 am
oh my goodness, I am so glad you’re back! 😀 😀 Your presence has been dearly missed Tricia, and I’m happy you and the boys are healthy and happy. Welcome back love.
Kari · September 25, 2002 at 3:10 am
It’s like…we’re family, ya know? And I felt like a part of US was missing while you were. I never even felt how much I missed you until you were back! Welcome home Tricia. I love you, sis.
rowz · September 25, 2002 at 8:27 am
“a part of US was missing”
or didn’t I hear that…
I’m so happy! :wah: :kissy: :wah: :kissy:
So many many beautiful words in there, stable, safe, calmer, relaxed. Your OWN!
We will most definately be talking soon. You can count on that!
that’s funny, I thought you put the site back up and just wasn’t updating during that time. Things happen for a reason…
Tee · September 25, 2002 at 8:50 am
Ok. let’s start gettin’ back to normal right now. So I will say this:
Good mornin’ my Tricia Wicia!!!! :hello:
I love you wifey Rowz. :kissy:
And shuddup Kari! :nyah:
Kris · September 25, 2002 at 11:36 am
YAY!!! You’re back! I was wondering when you were going to post again. We’re siblings *rainbow-dementia.org* I got rid of that though. I still have you linked on my new domain hehe. Wow I’m just so happy your back YIPPIE!! Missed you
su(zi)e · September 25, 2002 at 2:07 pm
omg, you’re back, you’re back!!! SOOOOO happy to see you honey. massive hugs from me.
Sue · September 25, 2002 at 5:19 pm
I’m so glad you’re back! Love you! ((((((((((((((((((Tricia))))))))))))))))))))))
christy · September 25, 2002 at 6:42 pm
Aw Tricia, I’m so glad you’re ok and whatnot 😀 missed u lots..
Lynn R. · September 25, 2002 at 8:27 pm
:hello: I couldn’t believe my eyes when I saw your name in comment. Welcome back kiddo :lovey:
Rikki · September 25, 2002 at 9:41 pm
:hello: YAY!! Welcome back, Tricia!!! Seeing you comment really made my day. I’m so glad things are looking up for you!
Nika · September 26, 2002 at 1:34 am
Welcome back, take care, be safe, all that good stuff 🙂
Michelle · September 26, 2002 at 8:20 am
Welcome back! We all missed you so much. :kissy:
Emerald Sky · September 26, 2002 at 10:36 am
I’m so glad you’re safe and doing well, Trisha. Goddess has blessed you.
stacey · September 26, 2002 at 1:29 pm
:hello: awww.. I saw you in my comments so you know I had to come check you out and like everyone else is saying.. I’m so glad to see you’re back! *huggiewuggiez* I hope everything is running semi-smoothly for ya.. and, um, just cause you don’t be on when I be on doesn’t mean I’m a ghost, i’m :batman: see.. that’s why folks shouldn’t have smilies.. welcome back tricia!
etcetera · September 26, 2002 at 3:05 pm
welcome back, ma. i’m glad the sun is finally starting to rear his beautiful face on your end. (hugs)
Sandee · September 26, 2002 at 5:31 pm
Welcome back girly :hello: missed you :lovey:
drublood · September 28, 2002 at 10:26 am
I’m so glad that you are back and safe.
the other trish · September 28, 2002 at 8:38 pm
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, welcome back! And I’m so glad you and your kids are ok! You blog as often or as little as you can, we’ll still be here!
Phira · September 28, 2002 at 11:08 pm
YES! YOU ARE BACK IN THE LAND OF THE LIVING!!! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH TRICIA! I’ve been so worried about you!
btw, I still have a box over here that needs to be sent out, email me your new snail addie!
Lisa BK · September 29, 2002 at 8:57 am
I’m so glad to see you back and up and running. I look forward to reading more… 🙂
bryn · October 1, 2002 at 6:53 pm
Welcome back Tricia.
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