Well, things are a BIT better on the novel front, I am at about 1200 words now, but I am still lagging far behind. When Donovan takes his nap today, I plan on buckling down for a good hour of typing. I haven’t really had any plans to post my novel anywhere on here, but if people are dying for me to, maybe I’ll consider it. But it’s not all that. You can view excerpts of it over at Nanowrimo.org, just click on “Authors & Novels” and search by my name.
The worst thing about the combination of Nanowrimo AND having a slow computer with a recent penchant for crashing and burning is that I feel like I am neglecting all my good friends and favorite daily reads, which is so not my intention. I have even considered going over to the library to access a faster computer just so I can make my rounds. I feel disconnected (there’s that word again) from everyone on here, and I don’t talk to a lot of the same people as I did before I left. I know things change, and people move on to other things, but I have a really really hard time with change.
It’s bad enough that my entire life has changed, my home, my income, my support system, my independence, my parenting status, my relationship status among many many other things. Now things here have changed a bit, and I guess maybe its been a bit more than I can handle all at once, so I have been avoiding, as usual. Just letting the days slip by, feeling bad about not clicking those links, but feeling relieved in another way that I don’t have to be responsible for reaching out to anyone. I don’t have to “put myself out there” where maybe someone won’t bother to respond to something I said, or they will just ignore the fact that I visit their site all the time, or they just won’t care. Of course, I know *I* shouldn’t care about all that, but I just can’t help it. Right now, I do care. But I really want to keep trying.

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Tee · November 4, 2002 at 7:46 pm

You know what Tricia Wicia? :hello: Hehe.
No matter what goes on in any one of our lives true friends understand each otha. Me and you can talk all day or hardly at all for a certain period of time and not 1 time do I think there is sumthin’ wrong. That is how close we are. Hell, you, Kari, Rose and a few othas are some of my closest friends and ya’ll neva even come to my freakin’ site! Rotflmfao!! But it’s ok because I don’t even expect ya’ll too…
I don’t want you to feel disconnected because we are NOT disconnected. We are closer than close and it’s just that we don’t get to “talk” ior “interact” as much as we want. I still got the same amount of love that I have always had for you.. Well even more now. :lovey:
So stop it Tricia! Stop feelin’ bad and don’t apologize. :huh:
Just focus on NaNoWriMo because dammnit! We got a 50,000 word count to meet. I was just ova at Kari’s site and she got like almost 6800 words so far!! 😑
I am writin’ anotha chapter now so hopefully I will be there soon. I find writin’ a little at a time as much as possible durin’ the day helps. By the nite you will have at least 1700 words yanno? I just wanna do as much as possible now so I can take a little break when I get tired. But not fall behind though.
I’m rootin’ for ya Tricia Wicia. :kissy:
Sistahs stick together no matter what. πŸ˜‰
Love you….
a long time. πŸ˜€

tiffani · November 5, 2002 at 12:37 am

Good Lord Tricia, why you wanna make me teary eyed! I agree with everything Tee said I couldn’t have said it better.
I’ve felt/feel the same way you do. But know that I don’t consider someone who comment on my site everyday a friend, it’s the small little emails, the two or three words of encouragement, the smiley faces…the occasional :hello:!
it’s the little things….they don’t have to be everyday or even everyweek….just the thought of someone out there in my corner.
Stay strong ma…and get ta’ writin’! :lovey:

Phira · November 5, 2002 at 3:27 pm

It’s that damn moon in Scorpio and Venus retrograde I TELL YOU!!! It’s even makin ME crazy. :pirate:
:crazy: :hello: :ha:

drublood · November 6, 2002 at 3:58 am

I, for one, will still be around when you have more time, more stomach for reaching out. Any old time.

etcetera · November 6, 2002 at 4:54 am

nanowrimo is definately a challenge for ALL of us, but remember…this is supposed to be FUN!
just because you don’t visit your dailies as much as you used to is completely ok (in my opinion). if your dailies came here…then they should know and understand why, sweetie. so don’t feel like you have to let us know you read us. we know that you read us when you have time. we all have lifes offline. i’ve only known you for a short time…but i do care about your well being.
try to focus more on things that might make you happy…and see if there’s a way they can be done. focus on nanowrimo too…like tee said! if you’re writing fiction…that can take your mind off some of the stress your having probably. (tight hugs) (lol!)
you’re wonderful. remember that.

homiesexual · November 7, 2002 at 10:01 am

You’re not neglecting anyone. It’s just because of NanoWrimo… That’s all.

Shunda · November 8, 2002 at 1:21 pm

Tricia I miss you too. But we’re all feeling the pressure of nanowrimo, so don’t worry about it. we know you still think about us. Just do what you need to do. :hello:

j. brotherlove · November 11, 2002 at 1:40 pm

I’m just ditto-ing what everyone else is saying. We’re all stressing and going crazy over this NNWM nonsense. There are simply not enough hours in a day, is there? It all get better at the end of the month.

Eboni · November 20, 2002 at 11:04 pm

You know we love you no matter what πŸ™‚

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