OK, so I decided the best thing for ME was to bring this blog back. This is my site, my words, and my life. I realize that a lot of what I have had to say lately has been depressing or glum, but that’s the way I have been feeling, and I refuse to lie about how I feel inside. If I can lie to all of you, it would make it that much easier to lie to myself. And, as I have begun to realize, the more I lie to myself and push feelings down and hide things inside, the more those same feeling insist on floating to the surface when I least expect it, throwing me for a loop and taking away all progress I thought I had made up to that point. I can’t allow anyone else to speak for me and how I feel.
After some back and forth that really doesn’t bear mentioning anymore, my girl and I have kissed and made up and moved on after learning a lot. I wish the whole thing hadn’t happened, sure, but the fact that we were able to work things out puts some of my faith back in people as a whole.
I want to publicly thank EVERYONE who e-mailed me, left comments, or messaged me about this issue, offering encouragement, support, shoulders, ears, and kind words. YOU are also one of the reasons I need to stay. You hold me up, lead me onward, and lend me strength to continue on my journey, and I am SO grateful to all of you, you will never know how much. Thank you all for sticking by me, even if you had conflicting feelings. I will be responding to each of you personally as I have time, please forgive me if it takes a few days.
I don’t really know what more to say right now, but I do know that I still have some heavy work ahead of me. It scares me a bit, but I will be exploring some issues that have been coming up for me in the coming weeks, and I am hoping that by putting them down in print the demons will be dispersed upon their un-merry ways and I can continue onward with my healing process.

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Michelle · December 9, 2002 at 11:34 pm

I am so glad you decided to keep your site up. I would definitely miss coming here and reading your thoughts and seeing adorable pictures of your boys πŸ™‚ Take care!

alex · December 10, 2002 at 3:02 am

πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€ πŸ˜€
i cannot even express how happy i am that you’re staying. YAY!!!!!!!

Sue · December 10, 2002 at 8:37 am

(((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))) I’m so glad to see you back!

Michelle W. · December 10, 2002 at 10:25 am

Welcome back! :bubbles:

Tee · December 10, 2002 at 2:18 pm

Betta had come back…. Hmph! :nyah:
I wuv you Tricia Wicia… :lovey:

tasha · December 10, 2002 at 2:33 pm

:lovey:WOOHOO!!! :lovey:

Lisa B-K · December 10, 2002 at 4:30 pm

Glad to have you back. 😎

Phira · December 10, 2002 at 10:08 pm

😎 :ha: :ha: :ha: :ha: :ha:

etcetera · December 11, 2002 at 11:59 am

welcome back, ms. musings! it’s good to hear that you’re staying. blessings. :nyah:

rowz · December 11, 2002 at 3:50 pm


Rikki · December 11, 2002 at 8:36 pm

Glad you’re back, gurly! And I am still tryna locate that brother for you!!! :LOL:

Jenn · December 12, 2002 at 9:14 am

Glad you decided to stay – and that you are doing it for you!

HomieSexual · December 12, 2002 at 9:55 am

I knew it! You could do it, you could and there was no question to it. There is no end to this journey that we make and for every moment that we contain ourselves, we become better and improve. This is what I love about you, and in a way.. what keeps me interested in what’s goin on.
LOL@conflicting feelings… that word is so… lol.. conflicting?
I’m gonna run away and cry now. :::::runs:::::
PSYCHE!1 :LOL: :LOL: :LOL: :ha: :wah:

Tricia · December 12, 2002 at 10:53 am

Awwwwwwww, thanks so much, everyone *teary-eyed*
LMBO@Lloyd…you are a verifiable NUTcase!! :crazy:
And I love you…and ALL of you…to pieces!

cat · December 12, 2002 at 3:30 pm


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