I haven’t felt much like writing. Everything is just…blah. I am not sure how much of the previous feelings are responsible for it, or if it’s just a general malaise caused by the crappy weather. Because the weather has certainly been crappy. Rain, sleet, wind, cold, warm, muggy, brisk, snow. All within the past 5 days. I guess that’s New England for you.
I have also been in a creative slump for so long it’s as if I never had any artisitc ability in me at all. Sure, I did a few layouts, but as far as I can see, they aren’t really creative. Just slapping some things together. I haven’t done a Poser image in over 4 months. And I still don’t even have any desire to. It’s like the IDEAS are there, somewhere below the surface, mocking me, just where I can’t get to them. And there are times when I’m not even sure I WANT to reach them. It doesn’t feel worth the effort.
These are the times when it starts to feel like anything is preferable to this endless pain and misery. Even death.
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